May 26, 2004
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Has everything become harder for anyone else?
Even though i've got my car, and i can now do alot more of the things i've wanted to in the past, i don't have the drive to do it. (Pun unintended)
I don't hang out with my friends anymore. I see nadine about as much as much as i do algebra homework. She came over last weekend to watch a movie for 3 hours, and before that i hadn't seen her for almost 3 weeks. It's been like that this whole year. I don't have a definite person to spend time with except for phil.
Alex is always busy or his mom wont let him do anything or he just flat out doesnt want me around or something. but thats Alex. He must think relationships last on seeing each other at school primarily. Im looking in the wrong place i guess. i shouldnt go out with the guys that i know sit at home and play videogames all day, that dont have a sex drive, and that dont know how to use the telephone. I'm not saying Alex isn't capable of being totally sweet, but he only treats me like i matter for the first two weeks we go out and then he looses interest and the rest of the relationship is just him figuring out a good time to tell me he doesnt like me........hey im rambling.
work is crap. every reason why i hate working in the food industry can be summed up in my employment at Orange Julius. But i've got insurance and money i owe to my parents so all i can do is complain, because i cant quit.
I don't have time for swimming. i ahvent been in 2 weeks. every day i havent gone is due to a group project for history or spanish, or english, or chemistry. also the projects that are individual for english, philosophy and spnanish take up alot of my time as well. i know college is goign to be so much harder and it makes me wonder if im really capable of it all.
im so stressed out right now about everything in my life i could cry. but that wont change anything. so i'll just say
Goodnight.
Comments (4)
Working with food sucks ass ! hmm well safeway is worse in my opinion scrubbing shit off kids toilets isnt worth 6.50 an hour... Oh well, im heading down to san jose on the 25th i think. Maybe ill see ya down there Take it easy
~~ Von
Lindsey, it is ok. Life has been getting harder for me as well. i won't share it bcuz i don't know u that well but i will let u know that life is a pile of crap. alex will come around sooner or later with good news or bad news. just talk to him about it if u haven't already. cut a class if you have to since he only talks to u while you're at school, or i could do it for u since he's in my 4th period class. sorry if i'm affending u n ne way but i'm just offering my advice. eventually, life will get better, but i'm not sure if u believe in God so i'm not gonna give u advice on that. Well good luck. have a good day if u can.
i am carlos from english if you're curious.
yeah, this entry is from a while ago. but thanks for the advice its really nice. i broke up with him cuz i got tired of him. so anyways thanks again for the advice.
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