October 9, 2004

  • Josh isnt my type.  im going to tell him that.  why deny it and then hurt him even more when i cant even stand to look at him in a week.  i don't think relationships work for me.  I like being single.  i like having that freedom, and i dont like the stress and work of relationships. 


    i've been pissed off, stressed out, and in a total bad mood for the past few days.  School is hard.  theres no way im going to keep a 3.0 this year.  there's no way im going to enjoy this year with all of this work.  i feel like im on this rush all the time.  im never home anymore.  im never calm. 


    im so fucking nervous and stressed i cant even enjoy anything anymore. 


    I fucking hate this.