ok havent updated in some time.
i made a new journal, but i still like this one alot so i shall continue to use it.
i have been swimming, and that's about it. I got sacred. and i have been playing it alot. i like it.
im really tired. i had to get up and swim. i had a fight with my mom. and nadine stayed the ngith last night so i couldnt take a nap when i got home.
i got some prom pics from nay that she developed.
xanga is being stupid. maybe pics tommorrow.
spring break.
the whole week after prom i was so busy.
I had major projects to turn in that i waited until the last possible moment to complete. i had swimming and a swim meet. i hada feild trip that fucked everything up with my spanish class cuz i missed na important day. i was up until 1 on wednesday night making shit. (im never awake after 11:30 so it was late for me)
Thursday ended. i was glad. so i went to swim practice after school. then i came home and did nothing. ended up going to beua's around 7:30 and left around 11 then i came home and slept. 6 am friday i went to swimming again. then went to wal mart then to mcdonalds. after i came home i took a nap and woke up at 2 and i was too lazy to do anything so i didn't.
Now im hungry. i might see if i can chill at alex's today. whateva. it's time for breakfast.
Prom was Fantastic.
Yesterday i woke up at 8 and cleaned, then i just lollygagged around waiting to take a shower before my appointment at the salon. and my mom and i went to wal mart and looked for jewelry and they had really cool stuff. i got diamond hoop earring and diamond choker a little bracelet and a diamond ring. ghetto-fab. then we went to the salon and they did my makeup, then my hair. i looked so fucking good. that's right.
Nadine got to the house around 5:30 then we got ready and found out that the zipper on her dress was broken. so we had to safety-pin it. it still looked alright cuz her hair covered it. phil came along to dinner with us at Red Lobster and it was dee-lish. around 8:30 we showed up at OG and had pictures taken, then we proceeded to the 'Auxiliary Gym'. We danced so much with everyone. it was great, i mostly was around Stephanie, Aubry, Karin, AShley and all of their dates. It was so much fun though. I didn'tthink i wanted to go at first but i did and i had the greatest time. I didn't go to a party after, i was so tired. Maybe next year.
So we brought nAdine home afterward and then i came home and talked online for an hour then fell asleep. and it was a fabulous evening.
Im tired.
Today i went to school.
My friends and i planned a get together for spring break, should be cool. *cough* After school my mom and i went to fresh choice then we went to tjmaxx and i picked up some prom shoes that i actually like. then i went to swimming and it was easy. everyone liked my hair today. :] people i didnt even know were commenting. then i came home and did homework, phil came over, and im bored now.
Nadine might not be able to come withe me to prom. Her grades arent good and she wont be able to get them up by the end of the week. damnit. *crys*
im gonna get food. goodnight.
just a drop of water in an endless sea.
This weekend i spent time with Beau and Ryan. Beau got a lovesac, and it's comfy. Ryan is here visiting for spring break but he is leaving tommorrow. he wont be back until summer most likely.
I got prom shoes, i cleaned my room, i tired to get my mom to buy me Sacred, but she wouldn't so i have to wait for my amazon gift card to come in the mail, whenever that will be. i made cupcakes, i looked for cars..some more...it's pointless im never getting one! Kris got a webcam, i watched it while i ate fishsticks. hmm, i didn't do anything this weekend.
I talked to Jeff for a while, his birthday is tommorrow. i didn't send him anything, but then again i don't feel like i should. whateva.
so anybody wanna lend me $40?
im getting different hair tuesday.
i won all of my events friday. check the sports sec. in the paper folkes!
hardcore. i think my friend brandon likes me. he might read this. that's ok.
i'm being random you guys. wait, it doesn't matter, nobody reads this because i quit posting for almost a month, unless bradon reads it, maybe...i didn't want to contradict myself there.
anyone want a cupcake?
i haven't written in a while. im a lazy buM.
so. i havent done anything except swim, and go to school. I met some new people. i went to the beaxch last sunday. it was alright, rather cold. i think there must be a law published in some book that i have yet to read that states : attractive women are not permitted to perform the sport of volleyball without the removal of their shirt. but what can i say, it was good show (if your into that type of stuff.)
i decided to go to prom, and i'll bring Nadine. should prove to be an enjoyable evening. i bought myself a dress. it's not a prom dress. it's strapless and short, but it' pleated at the bottom and it's excellent. Karin wante me to ask this guy Wesley from ST. i don't think that's happening.
i feel like i want to go out with someone. i don't have anybody in mind, but i've been thinking about it and i'd like someone to spend my time with. plus im horny as hell. 
so anyhow, i hung out with David and Karin some this week. They are really entertaining, plus i have known them for a while. so iss'all good.
im tired. im...drifting...goodnight.
i haven't written in this for a while.
hello again.
I went to school, swam, and did homework all week. then friday i went to the dance. i brought phil along and he thought it was boring, so i left him with bryant and those people while i danced with other people. i had a good time. i was tired but ihad money so on the way home we got mcdonalds which wasnt cooked all the way. i ate most of it anyhow.
saturday i woke up and made waffles for my mom and i, then tyler had some. he likes em' :]. hmmm then i went to the grocery store with mom and bought all the cereal, snacks, and frozen food that i haven't had since the last time i went to the store with her. then i came home, took a shower, and waited for phil to pick me up to go to Kasey's party, but after phil was 1 minutes late i called and he was half way to the party. he forgot to tell his mom to pick me up, even though i live a block away. so an hour later i got a ride from my mom. i bitched phil out and had a good time at the party. i knew mostly everyone. the snack selection was scrumptious. at 11 most of te chicks had left, so i did too. i stayed up until 4 though because i was talking to fawn about the problems she having with scott. i think scott wants to get a divorce because fawn found out that he has been talking to other women on the phone. he told her that if she didn't let him talk to one of the chicks that was his "friend" that she would have to leave him because he wasn't going to change for her. So Fawn has been depressed and crying for the past day and a half. i think marriage is taken too lightly amongst couples in the US today. i know that i would love to get married but if i have to get divorced i'd much rather live my life alone. ANYways. after 2 awn went to bed and David wanted me to call him so i did then i got tored and hung up/went to bed at 4.
today. i didn't do anything worth talking about. plus dinner is about ready.
Fuck it, I dont want you back.
I was talking to Jeff. He asked me i dont talk to him anymore. and i told him that i don't talk to hardly anybody anymore. i told him why and he thought i was insinuating that i was including him. he should know why i dont talk to him. Maybe because he ignored me for the last month of our relationship then just said, i just cant do this lindsey, oh gotta go, ttyl about it. and there was never a leter. maybe because a month after than he starts telling me he loves me and that he misses me and wonder why i become bitter about it. i dont talk to him because it hurts to talk to him. because he uses the word love very frivolously. because he doesn't understand that i cant let people hold me down when i want to do something more with my life than make jokes about everything and never face the fact that the comfortable life of living at home and being in high school is nothing, and it's over in a little more than a year anyhow. the people who havent faced reality or just think that life after high school is a tranquil picnic with cupcakes are really going to be in for a shocker, and im not referring to getting fingered.
so now im in a bad mood. good thing i finished my homework. im going to sleep.
i'm listening to a creed song that i first heard when i woke up during the drive to myrtle beach from maryland, the second summer i was visiting since living in CA. My cousins were all with me and Chris was driving. it was dawn and the sun was just coming up,the windows were half open and i could smell humidity. (something i dont ever smell here) the stereo was so loud because chris put a nice system in it. i wasthe only one awake except for chris. and i just layed there under the blanket and thought of every reason why i loved that summer and why i loved going home. every time i hear this song im in the car again, and i get the same nostalgic feeling.
Please come now I think I'm falling
I'm holding to all I think is safe
It seems I found the road to nowhere
And I'm trying to escape
I yelled back when I heard thunder
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down
I'm looking down now that it's over
Reflecting on all of my mistakes
I thought I found the road to somewhere
Somewhere in His grace
I cried out heaven save me
But I'm down to one last breath
And with it let me say
Let me say
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
That maybe six feet
Ain't so far down
Sad eyes follow me
But I still believe there's somthing left for me
So please come stay with me
'Cause I still believe there's something left for you and me
For you and me
For you and me
Hold me now
I'm six feet from the edge and I'm thinking
Today i woke around 6:30 and i went to sciencepalooza. i got there and found my board half finished, so my partner showed up and we finished it before the judging started. We had a really good presentation because we had extra research unlike all the groups around us. stupid motherfuckers. i don't know who won or anything i didn't stay for any of that. overall it was a waste of my time.
so i came home, ate 2 peices of pizza then slept for a good 3 hours now im thinking of going to see The Passion with phil. kasey said he wants to go, idk. anyhow, im about to workon a Huck Finn essay. and i ahve alot more homework to do tommorow. 
im out like a girl scout so when in doubt eat some alfalfa sprout.
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