September 9, 2004
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after work i was driving home and i felt strange.
the past 5 weeks have been nonstop fun for me. i have been with my friends almost every day. I dont even think i can name more than 2reasons why i feel so lonesome. but i do. I want to kiss someone, and i want it to feel like it used to; with those little butterflies and that giddy feeling afterward. But im not attracted to anyone. maybe thats why it feels different this time.. ususally i can find someone all of the time that im attracted to. But im realizing that alot of relatio ships arent worth it. i dont like the same people i used to. infact i dont even know what i like in a guy anymore.
having a relationship used to be something that was common for me. but i havent felt an attraction toward someone in almost a year.
I Should quit worrying. i should calm down, slow down, and let myself fall into something. and if that doesnt happen, i can always go hang out with those friends that im obviously not appreciating.
change is one of the hardest things to accept. thats why there should be more of it.
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Change is always good and attractions always come and go but love is something that lasts forever.Im glad your having soo much fun in your life but in time you will find someone who you can really care about and treasure for the rest of your life.If thats what you wish, but please remember that before you can really have a deeply meaningful relationship and be able to really love. You must look within and then once you have truely found yourself then you can truely be happy with yourself and thenbe happy with that special someone.He is waiting for you somewhere...and in time you will find each other.But dont worry soo much and just take life one step at a time and know that you are not alone.Change is something that is constant and the person you are today is not the same person you will be tomorrow...
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