December 17, 2003

  • alright.  So i'm depressed.  I havent talked to Jeff in a week. and i sit with Alex everyday and it makes me feel like shit, but i do it anyways because he makes me feel like he cares about me. which i know that he does, just not like the "relationship" type care. whatever.


    I found out i have a fucking D in Chemistry.  I'm fucking pissed, i do well for weeks and my grade goes up 3 points, then i dont turn 2 things in and 4 points are deducted. I brought my english grade up to an 83%. but i can only improve that. I should have A's in most of my classes.


    I just tried to call Jeff. and he didn't answer his phone. like he never does anymore. im starting to think that maybe this is better. im not thinking about im at school anymore, just thinking of himfor those 20 mins that i try to call an spend the other 19 thinking about how i miss him and such.


    Today jenna put a picture in our notebook of a man's penis that had about three horrible peircing on it.  She showed it to about 40 people and they all had about the same reaction to it. i thought it was funny as hell. oh well.  I had to copy all of my history homework at lunch.  i was glad i turned that in, my grade was about to slip to a B and turning in work wont let that happen.


    So Phil and i got high tonight. i enjoyed it for the most part. crap, i havent done my homework for math yet. oh man, good job, i wonder if he'll collect the folders tommorrow anyways?  i'll just do what i can in english and the first part of the period.


    I'm so sad and depressed i cant even concentrate anymore.